Have you ever heard a song.. that you've sung but all of a sudden the meaning really sinks in. Or have you heard something being said... you've always heard it said and all of a sudden you gain a new understanding. I remember once that I dabbled with the idea of not paying my tithes (i think i may have talked/blogged about it before) and then I realized the true significance of when they say The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. I was more of afraid of what would happen if I didnt do what I was supposed to do... that my rebellious thought was brought in line again...
Well lately... stuff has been going on. Stuff. Some can probably get a sense of it from my previous reading... stuff that I cant even profess on any page... I called my mother like an hour ago and she directed me to this psalm. and I started to cry.
I know the background of it... this was uttered by David after he taken on another man's wife. Actually heard the story on TV one random day and I was intrigued by it. But I understand what it means to be plagued... and I read this psalm and I cried because it conveyed EVERYTHING that I wanted from God. Everything that I need from God at this present moment. I want him to have Mercy on me. I want him not to take his Holy Spirit from me.
My mom said the devil will have you believe that you've reached a point of no return. The devil wants to cloud your mind because he's trying to thwart God's purpose for your life. Sometimes I wonder what part is the devil and what part is me.... but when things are happening that I am not consciously doing or allowing... then it cant be me... but whoever it is... whatever it is... I need God to have mercy on me... Have mercy on me God... Renew a right spirit within me. Create me in clean heart....
I posted something up before so if you're here again... i apologise... but this is just my mind frame. I thank you guys for your encouraging thoughts... and words
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Have a great weekend
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
because of your unfailing love.
Because of your great compassion,
blot out the stain of my sins.
2 Wash me clean from my guilt.
Purify me from my sin.
3 For I recognize my rebellion;
it haunts me day and night.
4 Against you, and you alone, have I sinned;
I have done what is evil in your sight.
You will be proved right in what you say,
and your judgment against me is just.
5 For I was born a sinner—
yes, from the moment my mother conceived me.
6 But you desire honesty from the womb,
teaching me wisdom even there.
7 Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Oh, give me back my joy again;
you have broken me—
now let me rejoice.
9 Don’t keep looking at my sins.
Remove the stain of my guilt.
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Renew a loyal spirit within me.
11 Do not banish me from your presence,
and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and make me willing to obey you.
13 Then I will teach your ways to rebels,
and they will return to you.
14 Forgive me for shedding blood, O God who saves;
then I will joyfully sing of your forgiveness.
15 Unseal my lips, O Lord,
that my mouth may praise you.
16 You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one.
You do not want a burnt offering.
17 The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.
18 Look with favor on Zion and help her;
rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will be pleased with sacrifices offered in the right spirit—
with burnt offerings and whole burnt offerings.
Then bulls will again be sacrificed on your altar.