May 20, 2007

A whisper (shhhhh)

I used to dig you
your style...
just you...

I loved the way you engaged the rules of grammar
I wanted to be the words that you wrote...
Hoped that when you wrote "you"
that "you" was me
I wanted to use my teeth...
graze your bottom lip
and softly pull u to me...
so I could inhale
each syllable... each fragment of thought

I wanted to be your instrument of pleasure
a guitar...
I wanted you to cradle me...
strum your fingers in different octaves
wind me up
and hear my different melodies.

When u wrestled with time...
watched it as it ticked through the night
I wanted to be that wave that you could ride
That would wash over and soothe your soul
I wanted to be your muse
I wanted to be like you
with you
wanted to capture your thoughts
reason through the complexities of your mind

but I think it was only meant to go so far
you have your demons...
and I...
cant fight them...
when I...
-

I was meant to want, not have
The physical was never meant to mingle
even when the opportunity was there...
And I find that I am at peace
It's nice to want...
was nice
even when it threatened the equilibrium
that was previously established by another
...It may not have been as nice to have


So Stranger
from your words and to the first hello
and from the comments to the blog you inspired...

This is a whisper
that I hope reverberates within you...
through your imagined indifference....
to say
Thank you and
Goodbye
hopefully not forever but Id be okay with that.
Ive let go and
Im learning to appreciate seasons :-)

15 comments:

Soul said...

Diamond.
Bravo

This is soo solemn yet empowering.
I could almost see you thinking this, then saying it.

Just remember honey, you are love.

And this is why I miss you writing, it's soo intimate, so inward looking, wish you'd write more often

The Pseudo-Independent said...

it will be singing in my brain for the rest of the day!

temmy tayo said...

Uhmn, another side of MISS D!

AN IBO DUDE'S CORNER said...

i wont pass as a "poem judge" but i think this is a nice one. keep it up

dolly said...

Nice one, great post

TaureanMinx said...

I like :). Hey Diamond, how have you been?

Pink-satin said...

i like

Uzo said...

Hmm....No comments oh and you know why....LOL

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

Hey Miss D, longest, you will not believe what Ive been up to, and yes I will be moving countries again. Will fill you in.

any hows, I feel like we went trhough this stage together, and kinda know what / who this is all about..lolol. up to my rubbish again.

anyhows, you continue to show us how trully talented you are, and your words, very well placed.

stay well.

DiAmOnD hawk said...

hey everyone... thanks for the comments!!!

@Soul... I will try to remember that... infact I think i need to come up with some affirmations for myself

@TMinx... I am doing well... thank you for asking... giving blogging another twirl... hope sweden is treating u well

@Uzo... O yes I know.. lol...you sef... infact just hand in ur resignation and become a full time investigative reporter...

@Life... we havent talked in a minute... where are you going again ehn?... and who is it... you've come again. anyways we'll talk soon

~Mimi~ said...

i really liked this when i read it.it is so applicable to a lot of things,people, situations,a bad habit...i like!

Shay said...

love this! seasons are a part of life. sometimes you'd like one season to last longer but it doesn't 'cos it has done the job it was meant to....seasons come and seasons go...hmmmm

i hate saying goodbye sometimes! sorry this is just a random thot. i think i'm at a point in my life where i'm starting to hate goodbyes. i just want some things & some poeple to stay forever (if possible). why should you have to say goodbye....

nice one D :)

Orientatednaijababe said...

i was in awe wen i read this...it was as if u knew what wat i am goin thru at the moment.....i relate to every single word in this post. Stay strong and enjoy each season as it passes by

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

absolutely beautiful

Fanwest said...

You have a sound mind... to be able to translate your thots to words so clearly. Beautiful.