August 30, 2006

Cooper - Decaler

Meeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnn
that video is something else!!!!
I finally watched it today...My cousin sent me the link so I was like let me finally check it out...
whoa whoa whoa...
that girl can shake wiggle bounce....ALL-O-DAT
I bet she can do some hurtful acrobatics
my future husband HAD BETTER NOT watch it and start making all sort of requirements....maybe with small practice I can move like that...LOL

let me start practicing...for those of you that haven't seen it...click the video link below

Video

3 GIRLS ON 3 WAY

gosh it's past 3am...I woke up about an hour ago thanks to Tropical Storm Ernesto...it's thundering something fierce...as in I feel like any moment the ground will crack open from the sheer intensity of it...the power went off twice...but only for seconds each time...im going to try to sleep for another hour...but I told yall before I'd post about a conversation I had with my friends...so here it is...
I know a lot of people, but I have very few friends. I remember once I posted that friends are optional...but that's a lie. We all need friends. My friends are part of my extended family. I have two in particular that Im close to....we're ALWAYS on the phone with each other. One of us will start talking to another, then someone will suggest, let's call the 3rd person. We're all in Christ and share similar beliefs although I seem to be a bit more liberal than they are. It's great to have friends you can be comfortable with where you don't have to justify your moral codes and general life ethics.

This weekend was great! I got to talk to Ola and Bk. Bk is married and tells us exactly like it is. She's our reference guide for now. We had an interesting conversation on friday night that spanned close to 3hours. Here's the deal:

Ola just moved to a new state. A mutual guy friend is also moving to the same state as Ola and asked her if he could stay with her while he situated himself...Im guessing no more than a week. She has a 2bedroom/2bath apartment. She said NO that she wouldn't feel comfortable and suggested for him to stay with another friend. He told her not to worry that he wouldn't be comfortable staying with her guy friend because he doesn't know the guy. I thought this was understandable.
What I didn't understand was why she wouldn't let him stay with her. I questioned her decision. She said "Diamond it's just not right" and "I wouldn't feel comfortable". I still didn't understand and and I was thinking "what makes it not right". And why would you feel uncomfortable...is there some underlying feeling that you're denying yourself now that you feel you may act on? So I suggested we call Bk and let's all talk about it. Ola thought Bk might be able to help me understand.
For me, I don't think there's anything wrong with having a guy friend stay over. Which brings me to my friend S....I let him stay over all the time...even hand him a key when he's around so he can go and come as he pleases without bothering me.
Ola asked me, "If you were in Nigeria would you do the same?"I paused to think about it...I was also remembering Miguel's recent post about not forgetting where we come from...I told her, "Probably not" only because the circumstances in Nigeria are different. In Nigeria, I would be under the authority of my parents and their house but in America, I am independent...have my own place...pay my own bills...go and come as I like...
To be real, my boyfriend has a serious problem with it. He doesn't like it at all but I keep telling him "it's just S". Last time S came I didn't want to tell my boyfriend. Im not trying to be secretive but I just didn't want any trouble and no matter what, I don't seem to be able to convince him that there's no romantic intent on S's part. I think it's a case of..."Yeah baby, I trust you...I don't trust him". And he is none too pleased about me giving him a key
My friends believe that I'm adopting American principles when I should be true to my Nigerian roots. But Im saying THE SITUATION AND CIRCUMSTANCES ARE DIFFERENT. Does anyone feel me on this or no?
Bk asked me a question, posing a different scenario: Let's say your boyfriend is in lagos and has a female friend in PortHarcourt who comes to Lagos every other weekend and stays with your man. Wouldnt you have a problem with that if this happened all the time? And then that female friend has a key....
Yes, I think maybe after the first time I would have problem with it because she should have other friends she can stay with and IT'S NIGERIA for goodness sakes...she must have some extended family member she can stay with. I don't think I'd be down with her having a key at all. There's an implied intimacy with that
Back to the convo with Ola re: our mutual guy friend....I still didnt think it was wrong. But both girls said to me..."You never know what's lurking in the mind of the other person". I mean, someone comes to visit you....they're there 5pm, 8pm, 11pm....2am...it just seems WRONG. They said don't place yourself in any situation where indecent things may occur. Dont place yourself in the way of Temptation. What if..... don't place yourself in a situation where "what if..." can occur.
They think my relationship with S is unique but sometimes they're like "Are you sure you guys don't have something going?" This is something we laugh about but Im getting older and wiser hopefully so I do take some things to heart...
I guess I need to stay away from all things that have the appearance of impropriety. So next time S comes to town, Hotel Diamond will no longer be available

August 28, 2006

Weekend Rantings

It's monday again everyone. The start of the work week for most. You know what I think, if you dont feel like going to work EVERY monday, then maybe...just maybe you should change jobs/careers...
I had a wonderful weekend again. Worked on saturday...on Sunday, didnt go to church as planned. Didnt visit my cousin as planned. All because I slept late. I was to be up by 5am...I did wake up briefly but I wanted another 5minutes, next thing I know it's 6:30am....basically changed the rest of my plans. I slept around past 2am...but I thought I'd be able to make it. Well I caught the live service on the net so it was all good. I did manage to bake a cake and cook some fried rice. Gave most of it away and giving the rest away at work today. I also managed to do laundry...Im so proud of me...I had a productive weekend. The only comma was my aunt telling my mom that if i dont go back to school she should request I come home. Maybe they've forgotten that I've been on my own since I was 17 and pretty much do things the way I want
My girlfriends and I were talking...I'll post about that in a bit...and we were talking about men...you know that's our favorite topic...marriage...boyfriends...sex....all that. We were talking about the quality of men and this this that. My friend just came back from Nigeria...she hadnt been in like 10years and she said she was looking for men for all of us...yeye girl...she's very silly since we each have significant others. Anyways we got on the topic of men being "Fine"...marrying a fine boy. One was telling the other "Do you want to have ugly kids?".... Out of nowhere, this girl says "Did you see ********'s website.....did you see their parents?"
OH GOODNESS! If yall knew the website she was talking about....you guys would open your mouth in instant shock then burst out laughing.....me, Im not doing this wedding website thing. See how ppl just start dissing other ppl's parents...well im not worried about my parents (would i say anything else?)...Anyways she was saying the couple is beautiful but marrying a beautiful person doesnt guarantee having beautiful children.
On the website tip...I know, wetin be my business right? But please I went to someone's website...it was soooo boring....I just think if you're gonna have a website that you're going to share....it should be interesting..please dont be mad...i'm just saying...i mean it was UTTERLY boring...everything was condensed...how they met...blah blah blah...I hope their lives are more interesting than that site..okay....moving on...not my business..it's not like I even know them or had any business looking at their site
One of my managers at work is getting married and moving to a foreign state... you know... states like South Dakota... utah... alaska... those are the foreign states...the ones you're surprised there are black people (me and my ignorant behind right?)...MONTANA....gosh....im willing to bet there's a nigerian in everyone of these states...my friend's mother went on business to india some time back and who does she see but a naija guy pushing a wheel barrow.... Well one thing I know for sure is that Nigerians will work to make their money...
Anyways this manager talked about how she protected her wedding website comments so that they all have to be approved. One of her friends told her she went on her Ex's website and told the truth....about how the guy really wanted to marry her instead and he just came to visit her a couple of weeks ago and blah blah blah....women shaaaaaaa.....hell hath no fury right? Anyways what im trying to say here is, she said she's not going to put up her wedding pictures on her site...she's going to have it on a different site and you'll need a password to get into it....well guess what?
YOURS TRULY has the password. How?....I was accessing the main pictures of Rhyna and BJ (legally and Im not sharing)...and who do I see in the gallery....but pictures of my manager and her man....their engagement pictures...hehehehehehe....so i guess i'll be able to access their wedding pictures since they're using the same photographer...
I kinda wish I'd gone for Rhyna and BJ's wedding...oh well...but honestly it was beautiful. I may have been a little cross eyed trying to look at all the pictures but everything from the dress to the minute details of the wedding...WONDERFUL. Everyone looked beautiful and from inside details, it was well organized...that to me is key!
A friend told me about Doreen and Bayo's wedding...how they both knelt down to feed each other....she did...then he did....aaaaawwwww...that's so cute...so humble...seems like a great way to start off the marriage...I wish them the best. I may need to recruit him & Miguel to teach me and my friends' boyfriends a few things. Mr. Baale...are you taking note? :-)
Some of my friends dont see how it is I will marry a proper naija man...they think im too yakeenized...they're so wrong though. Maybe they're pulling my legs...I mean I've only dated Nigerian guys...not deliberately...it just always works out that way. I love my culture and I do look forward to kneeling down and feeding my own husband, amongst other things. The alleged ultra-feminist in me will have to simmer down when it comes to my marriage. Im not so sure though of cooking those funky meats...
How was your weekend people. Anything interesting happen?

on a final note: when someone tells you to have a "good day"....tell them to have a "better one"...I like that alot. Someone said it to me a while back and someone else said it to me on saturday. It always puts a smile on my face....and ever since I heard it, I've tried to pass it on....try it this week

August 25, 2006

Im scared. I am.

Since the beginning of the year, I've been planning to go see my sister...the one who just turned a year older on sunday. I'd been looking at prices and for the time frame I planned on going, I was looking at ticket prices in excess of $800. I refused to purchase a ticket for that price to England because I felt that I might as well go to Nigeria

I didnt expect this to happen.

Im at work with some down time. Im looking for a ticket
I went to aol. hotwire. & finally cheaptickets for my search
check out www.bookingbuddy.com It helps you search multiple carriers at the same time

At first what came up was United. Then I started to remember about the United flight that crashed. I looked for random dates to go and all of a sudden, I started to tremble. What if Im booking the flight that will lead to my demise. My cousin died recently when a plane crashed. Im just not ready to die.

Here I am...happy...living life. Im trying to book a ticket months in advance but that may very well be the ticket that will...
I wish I didnt feel this way. Im almost at the point of tears. I cant imagine how or when I became this fearful person. Well I guess I can

My friends are travelling all the time. Im trying not to be scared. I really am. How will I make this fear go away. I almost on the verge of tears. I stopped searching. Emailed my sister briefly with my estimated dates. Im waiting for her to respond. I think I'll have her do the search and just let me know what dates she chose

God help me. Pray for me please.

August 24, 2006

Can I get your attention please

Do the following...

1- Go to www.google.com


2- Type in the word Failure

3- Look at the first listing

4- Tell others before the people at Google fix it!

A little Humor...

The Barber

An American priest walked into a barber shop in Washington, D.C. After he got his haircut, he asked how much it would be. The barber said, "No charge. I consider it a service to the Lord."

The next morning, the barber came to work and there were 12 prayer books and a thank you note from the priest in front of the door.

Later that day, a British police officer on vacation came in and got his hair cut. He then asked how much it was. The barber said, "No charge. I consider it a service to the community."

The next morning, he came to work and there were a dozen donuts and a thank you note from the police officer.

Then, a Nigerian Businessman came in and got a haircut. When he was done he asked how much it was. The barber said, "If you are really a Nigerian then you don't have to pay since you are from the same country as Akeem Olajuwon the basketballer."

The next morning, the barber came to work and there were 12 Nigerians in front of his door waiting for a haircut!!!

come on over to MYSPACE

can i just say this?

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MYSPACE

I've been going crazy over this website.

Well for starters, it helps me keep track of my brother...as long as he logs in everyday I know he's okay. He's actually the only reason I initially joined...I couldnt view his profile & pics w/o logging in

My old friends from school are finding me...which is fantastic seeing as i left out a lot of information you can use to find me...Im just a bit hesistant about putting my name out there so much so that I deleted my first profile and started all over again w/less info...I mean when I do a search of my name, the interesting things that come up... I once had a guy tell me about an essay I wrote and I asked him how he found it...OH I JUST SEARCHED YOUR NAME...can we say STALKER????????? And it was just a stupid essay, something i had no business writing...wrote it in like 5minutes for a scholarship...talk about an essay full of grammatical errors with no focus...i wish i could delete it off the net....

And Im discovering that some of my friends have hidden lives...well a life that I didnt know about. I found one of my friends. I was looking at this picture and I was like THIS GUY LOOKS FAMILIAR...oh well...HE WAS...IS...he never told me he had become a hiphop artist for real for real...I mean we messed around with stuff like that in college but he's taken it far...I mean I just talked to him last week and all this while I didnt know...i thot he was trying to be a pharmacist

And Im finding random friends like that...people that have immersed themselves into the music industry...I LOVE IT...more talent I'll be needing to use...FOR FREE....yyaaaaaayyyy!!!! lol.

I've had two friends in as many days find me...Im just tripping out cuz im sooooo excited...i think im overly excited cuz im BORED but it's been nice being able to reconnect with my friends...
And of course the incident with Travis Barker where he was dissing his soon to be ex-wife, saying she was a bad mother...myspace is just wonderful

forget hi5 and hop on over to MYSPACE

IF YOU FIND ME...ADD ME..shhhhhhhhhh if you find me...I'll give you a $100...lol


gosh it's past midnight...goodnight

August 22, 2006

3 non blondes - JOSE JOSE ....FUNNY!!!!

August 21, 2006

I had a great weekend and I hope yours went just as great as mine…if not, there’s always the next one…

This Sunday, in my heart, I rededicated my life to God. I haven’t been to my church in a long time because the same road that leads there is the one I had an accident on. I conquered my fear yesterday and I’m so happy I did. My church is 45minutes away and I’ve been rethinking joining another church that’s closer to me but today I received confirmation that this is my church. I am connected to it…it’s actually the only church I’ve ever taken the time out to join. I love my spiritual father and I believe he’s going in a direction that I’m going as well. He’s connected to Africa along with Pastor Matthew of KICC and they’re doing great things individually and together

Since Im on a church tip, Let me tell you about a recent conversation I had with my friend Chukwu.
This pastor was sent from Nigeria to start a church here in America. No resources, no nothing! Chukwu received a call from a respected friend who asked him to come and help support the pastor and his mission

Chukwu being the nice guy that he is says no problem and he starts attending the church with his friend. Then the pastor gets close to him and asked him to help lead Sunday school or bible study, I forget which. And then he asked Chukwu to become the assistant pastor. He's only known Chukwu for a couple of weeks.

I was shocked. Why would anyone ask Chukwu to be an assistant pastor. I mean as far as reading the bible and knowing Godly stuff, Chukwu and I are kinda on the same level. We're both striving to reach a higher level/increase our faith and all that. I mean last time I went to see him, he had playboy/women in lingerie type pictures for his screensaver on his PC. Is that how Pastors roll now? So I asked him, Did he say he was led by the spirit when he asked you that? Maybe this was a prophetic type calling…I didn’t really believe that

Chukwu: Diamond, I don’t know o. He just came and asked me. Even me I was wondering why. I mean that’s how I’ll be in the club and one of the members will see me and be like AH! ASSISTANT PASTOR WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

I laughed out loud at that one because I could just see him bumping and grinding in the club with the congregation looking on with shocked faces. I mean think about it…imagine if it was your pastor!

The whole thing baffled me. Why would a church send a man to another country with no resources. OH JUST GO THERE AND START A CHURCH. Is it that easy? And this same man you sent, is asking MY FRIEND to be an assistant pastor…just like that….no history searching…no nothing. I thought decisions like these were to be done w/care and much prayer and stuff. According to my friend this is how this particular church does business. It's no wonder Im a bit hesistant about attending it.

I think this is why some churches do not grow in terms of its members spiritual life. It only grows in quantity...not quality...do you get what Im trying to say here? Perhaps people see establishing churches as a money making establishment instead of building kingdom relationships. I mean why else would this man come here to start a church...and get this, he expects Chukwu to supplement his income. He thought he'd seen a fool...aka-> a young fella with an engineering degree making decent pay.


Anyways people, how was your weekend

If you’ve been following my relationship blog, I finished with all ten points…so check it out and spread the word

******
Heard this yesterday on Dateline...thought it was cute:

Growing old is mind over matter….if you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter!!!

August 20, 2006

It's my sister's Birthday today

My sister is a year older today….

I wish I could be there with her to celebrate it. She moved to England a couple of years back and I miss her a lot. Of all the sisters I have, I love this one the most. We have a close friendship and I can always count on her to give me sound advice and supplement my income when needed. Hallelujah for big sisters w/compassion!!!

Sometimes, she's quite irritating…always spewing words of wisdom when I want her to agree with me.

Just the other day I was telling her how I couldn’t help being “friendly” with other guys…it’s just my nature…blah blah blah…she was like “Yes you can, you’re not getting any younger you know?”
I mean WHAT?
But I appreciate that while Im in my fantasy world, she's able to bring me back to reality. But really how far with telling me Im not getting younger..I have a birthday coming up and Im a little scared...I dont know why

I got my Tracy Chapman CD in the mail the other day. I only bought it for the song "The Promise".I called my sister Kelly in Lagos. She loves Tracy. So we got to talking and she was like, when are you coming home, you're now a woman...this that this...

STOP STOP STOP
woman? no o
im still very much the baby of the family....what's up with the woman title
and as far as coming home? sometime after the elections sounds good to me

But yeah, my sister is a year older and I thank God for her life. We've been through alot together. A few tears and Lots of laughter...you cant be around us and not laugh...we make fun of everything and everybody...even ourselves.

She's beautiful...but of course....she's my sister...we dont have ugly people in my family...hmmmm...i take that back!
She's very very smart...
She's forever trying to gain weight and Im forever trying to lose it...so we're quite in sync
Five minute phone calls quickly escalate to 5hrs and I always wonder what we're talking about.
She sends me boxes of TUC and Rich Tea each time I request it...
I tell her about 95% of things I go through, blogs I read, events no matter how insignificant that occur
She allows me to rant and rave about everything from B to A
Sometimes when I dont want to cry by myself, I call her and she helps put things in perspective
She's my prayer/fasting partner
She's the only constant person in my wedding - my maid/matron of honor
She's my partner in the non-profit organization I birth
She knows ugly details about me and is still non-judgemental...
She encourages me to pursue my dreams instead of following the path society dictates
She's just a great person...
If you met her, you'd think so too

I havent seen her since she moved, and terrorists allowing, I'll be there later this year to see her. Hopefully I'll be able to meet a few of the bloggers I like as well as some of the friends I've made over the internet thru my college years
Anyways...
Happy Birthday Sis. I love you.

August 14, 2006

SAY IT AINT SO

Mr. Ayo Daramola...
just decamped from PDP to ACD
governor aspirant, Ekiti State

assassinated
happy monday everyone

how was your weekend?

alot of things happened with me this weekend
let's just say my hand was caught in the cookie jar
im still trying to decide if it was for the better or for the worse
time will tell i guess

i'll be missing for a minute
in the mean time
check out my new page on relationships.

www.godlyrelationships.blogspot.com

have a blessed week
D

August 11, 2006

A little humor

A boss walked into the office one morning not knowing that his zipper was down, and his fly wide open. His secretary walked up to him and asked, "Boss this morning when you left your house, did you close your garage door?

This was not a phrase that her boss understood, so he went into his office looking a bit puzzled. When he was about done with his paper work, he suddenly noticed that his zipper was not zipped up. He zipped up and remembering what his secretary had told him, finally understood.

He then intentionally went out to ask for a cup of coffee from his secretary. When he reached her desk, he asked, "When you saw the garage door open did you see my jaguar parked in there?"

The secretary smiled for a moment and said, "No, Boss I didn't. All I saw was a car with 2 flat tyres!

August 7, 2006

Okay

so I was at the Mall in the early morning. Went running in the parking lot
had parked my red convertible
I was holding an umbrella because of the threat of the rain

All of a sudden there was an SUV and this silver mercedes convertible right

The SUV waited for the Mercedes to turn from the parking lot into the main road going in the opposite direction from the SUV...you know like a courtesy type thing. When just like that it crashed right into the SUV. I dont know how it missed it

And the SUV just started driving o...as in with the accident...just drove forward. I dont know if it was shock or what....it was driving the Mercedes forward

Then this man came running and picked up something from the accident site. Looked like a catapult and fired something towards my direction

So I ran back into my car and started driving off then I turned back to park it because I was scared to drive the car. These people seemed dangerous. Im not sure if this was like a gang war or something

I got out of my car then started running home because the Mall is down my street...like 5miles...then I thought better of it. Doesnt it make sense to get my car. Maybe I too was in shock.

So I went back to my car and it was missing

I had left the keys and my cell phone in the car

Can you imagine?

The Messengers [spoken word]

There's a new show on TLC, The Messengers. I'd seen the preview and I thought it had something to do with Spoken Word. There's a theme every week. They first put the individuals thru certain experiences such as hanging out with the homeless or working on a farm and based on that, they give them a topic to speak on. The messages heard are truly inspiring. My favorite Messenger is Cornelious "See" Flowers. Please take a moment to check it out. I can almost guarantee that you will be inspired by their words and maybe motivated to do something... I also Like Daneea and Angelica. My previous REflections came from the show: The Messengers or go to www.tlc.com/messengers
Hope yall had a great weekend

Song to check out: I Want It All Back by Tye Tribbett...if ever there was a song made for battle...it's this one.
Okay so it's right past midnight and I cant sleep. How about Im watching ElimiDate. Havent seen this show in ages and I guess I've missed something becaue I dont know when they started including the Parents on the Date. I mean this guy has his mom with him and is making out infront of his mom....eeeeewwwwww. And now they're all in the hot tub. Why are these girls always so catty. Im so sorry but I cant fight for a guy. It's just so demeaning to me. And to make out infront of your parents..maybe it's me...maybe I'm ultraconservative infront of my parents but I just cannot do that. I mean I dont even want to see my parents kiss...yuck!

Or is it age that allows such things as PDA (public display of affection) infront of your elders. I dont even know how comfortable I would be sitting with my significant other in the same room as my parents. Im shy...sometimes. I mean to be sitting there...cant touch each other...cant do anything because his mom or dad is there or someone older is there. There are sometimes when Im in a relaxed mood and would be probably prone to being "touchy"but even that has its levels. I guess it depends on who Im with and the ambience of the audience we're in the midst of. I havent been in the situation of being with my man infront of "the elders" except my brother so this is just based on how I imagine I'd be.
The one incident with my brother, he came home and I was out infront w/my guy and he thought I was being naughty and that it was rude of me to not acknowledge his presence. I mean it was dark...there was no light...we were outside leaning against the car...how should I have known he could really really see me. lol. He had just arrived with his chick at the time...and they parked right infront of the house. I mean I didnt disturb them did i? He wanted me to open the gate for him...as in...what happened to your key. He's like 16 or so years older than me o but he's really cool although I think he's always trying to sell me to his friends. When I was a teenager...I was really into making out in public but now i think there's something to be said for keeping things private...I mean one time in church...this was years ago when I lived in Boston, Church was being held in some open place and that's how this couple were tongue slopping all over the place...i mean how inappropriate...
I was talking to a friend that visited over the weekend and as it tends to happen w/girls when we get together, we were talking about guys. We talked about being intimate and all that kissing stuff. How it felt and what we did and didnt do and all that. Well my friend has only really kissed one guy right? She told my other friend as such and that one said, "where were you after WAEC"...so apparently that was the thing to do then...is this true? If it is, I certainly missed out...
Holding hands is nice...what happened to doing just that ehn? Better to hold my hand than to have it on my face...I dont like guys touching my face...I get an allergic reaction when they do that.
Okay it's past 1am. Soul Train is on w/Ray J and this rapper chick Ebony Eyez...she's not so bad. I dont know why but I like guys that wear studs...diamond studs...one in each ear...now you have to be FOOIINNNEEE to pull it off. I also love when guys can braid/twist their hair...Imagine this...a brother...nice bod, nice suit but with the above mentioned traits...sexy i tell you...makes me wanna gobble them up... um...sola...do you braid your hair or are your ears pierced? ROTFLMAOOOOOOO
...my cousin just hit me up from Brazil so I had to take a break from typing. He just came back from a concert. I think I better go to bed now. It'sjust past 2am. I have to be up by 5:45am
oh no..there goes another cousin hittin me up on yahoo...dont these ppl sleep...I wonder if I'll go to work today
I pray that your week ahead is blessed and that you receive uncommon Favor from God as you go about your daily business

August 2, 2006

Music Im Feeling: Deborah Cox

There are some songs that make you smile; that can accurately portray in a couple of verses what you're feeling. Lately, I find myself reverting back to old songs from like the early to late 90s that I used to sing and memorize the words to...songs that now, I fully comprehend like never before.

One of such songs is by Deborah Cox...How did you get here...I was having a conversation with Ms.Davis about two weeks ago and we were talking about something and she brought the song up and I was like...IS THAT WHAT THAT SONG IS TALKING ABOUT? hmmm....never thought about it. I love the song. Im definitely feeling it. In fact Im about to order the CD from half.com. I ordered Allure's CD 3wks ago because I wanted to hear "All Cried Out" (im done downloading songs...ive wasted so much money on itunes and sony with my pc crashing. i used to order CDs and ppl thot i was crazy for getting a CD for one song, my sister thought I was being wasteful..okay so i did the download thing and guess what...ALL MY FILES ARE GONE . Now IF someone has this song and wants to send it me...that'd be nice too...shoot me an email)...I'll try to upload the song by Deborah soon if i can...but here are the lyrics



NOBODY'S SUPPOSED TO BE HERE

How did you get here
nobody's spose to be here
i've tried that love thing for the last time
my heart says no no
nobody's spose to be here
but you came along and changed my mind

i've spent all my life
on a search to find
a love who'll stay for eternity
that heaven sent to fulfill my needs
but when i turn around
again love had not been found
my heart got broke and oh it hurt so bad
i'm sad to say love wins again

so i place my heart under lock and key
to take some time and take care of me
then i turn around and you're standing here

this time i swear i'm through
but if only you knew
how many times i've said those words
then fall again when will i ever learn
so many tears i've cried
this lovely black butterfly
must take the chance and spread my wings
love can make you do some crazy things

how did you
how did you get here
nobody's spose to be here
i've tried that love thing for the last time
my heart says no no
nobody's spose to be here
but you came along and changed my mind


this song is playing in my head...keeping me company as i make my way to the end of my work day...My mother once told someone "Diamond doesnt fall in love" and in a way it's true...but this song almost makes me wistful...to be broken and hurt, building a wall around you to block everyone yet someone manages to break in without you realizing....now that's deep...and that person (the one who broke in) is really special. I think we all need someone special in our lives, non?

August 1, 2006

Culturrreee Shock

okay i was reading my blog and all of a sudden i was flooded with memories of Nigeria and coming to America

it was 1994...arrived in sunny california via Heathrow
being a nigerian...new in school...overemphasizing my RRRs.....i had to learn a new way to live...and I was in Los Angeles...you know LA is a whole new world. so in class one day, the teacher announced we were having a quiz in class tomorrow

a quiz!!!
FINALLY something I could relate to. I went home looking forward to math class the next day...we were going to have a quiz...

that's how i got to class the next day and the teacher was like take a piece of paper out and a pencil...

um....what kind of quiz is this. Why werent we dividing into two rows...you know....left side and right side...and why didnt she draw a table on the board to keep score of how we did

WELCOME TO AMERICA DIAMOND

so i found out a quiz was actually a test...needless to say i didnt pass.

if yall have similar stories/experiences, i'd love to read from you...

REflections

*Never look down on someone except you're trying to help them up


*Success is being able to build a strong foundation from the same bricks life throws at you