which is better
ive been questioning myself for the past couple of weeks
is it better for one of your parents to be dead or is it better to be divorced
you know it's take THIRTY SEVEN years for children to get over their parents being divorced....count it....1 2 3........37 years....I suppose it would take a life time to get over the loss of your parent...but at least the problems do not continue to perpetuate themselves over and over again. You never have to be stuck in the middle, each party accusing you of taking sides with the other party. Im confused...Im not sure. Hmm...what about being separated....is that better than divorce. To live in the same house but carry on as if you're not married by law. I know alot of ppl in that situation. Some of you reading this...you know that's YOUR house. How do you deal with it. These are the thoughts that run through my head when Im approached about marriage. It makes me think less and less of marriage. Actually the only thing I fantasize about is the actual wedding...I dont think beyond the ceremony. And when I think of my children?....they're all grown...i dont think of them being babies and changing diapers. I think of them handsome and beautiful with me their mom, the matriach...admired/envied by all...WOW WHAT A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY. lol. my thoughts. im scared of marriage. i dont think i've admitted that before. it's like going to a strange place, a new country...you really want to go...you've never been there before...it's supposed to be great over there...there's an anxiety about going...kinda like the churning in your stomach before you start your relay race...*sigh*....I want to get married...because by my faith that's the only instance where sex is allowed and i really really wanna have sex...lol. Had a conversation with a friend today. He's really handsome. We actually said about 3yrs ago that if by age 30 neither of is married we will marry each other but God help me I dont want to marry that boy. He's hardworking although I think he may be susceptible to dubiousness. He's handsome...so sexy it's sinful. But he admitted he cheated on a girlfriend a while back and it was HER fault. and today he said I should research the reasons why people cheat that i may be surprised about what i learn. Hmmm...I cant marry someone like that and he's asthmatic and Im scared he may have an attack while we're having sex and I'll be scarred. And he has this job that I HATE...anything that has do with secrecy and nigerian government...please let me pass by...that's how my body parts will be spread/sold in different states. But I guess having such a job could be useful for my sometimes vengeful mind. See the thoughts that run through my head? This is mild. I dont want to scare anyone away...let's just say in my head the switch between sanity and insanity sometimes gets faulty....
went blog surfing today. saw DNG's post on racism. Delot if you're reading this, loved all your responses..you were on point!!! saw no use to make a comment when you'd said it all. interesting that i read that today when just yesterday i emailed my sister about being a slave owner...also read Sola Baale's post on identifying people by their make up...thot that was funny. Someone once told me im one of the few she thinks look good w/o makeup...but she wears glasses...soooooo...WHAT AM I SAYING...lol...Dilichi talked about mainland vs island...now if yall didnt know Im THE KJA Diva...that's Ikeja for those of you islanders scratching your head. This reminds me of one of my friends, his name is Moha...lived in agege...his TAGS were GGE...Great G**** Empire he dubbed it....Moha...I've had some interesting acquaintances in my lifetime...thoughts for another day
in other news...according to some research done in the UK....Denmark is the happiest place on earth... got this from an article on AOL
another article from AOL talks about what to do when you have a car accident...please take a moment to read it...this is knowledge I wish I'd had...just like when i read NyjaGuy's blog and immediately consolidated my school loans...just doing my part in spreading the knowledge
how was your weekend?